**warning: this post dives a little deep for a brief moment, if you are up for it, stick around, if not, see you on the flip side later this week ;)***
Lately, I have been feeling like there are just NOT enough hours in the day to complete everything I want to. Currently, I have (3) projects under construction. I have not been devoting the time that I think I should. I started to feel super anxious about the un-done projects among a million other things. Then, A few weeks ago…I attended a very enlightening workshop on prosperity, it was a circle setting, focusing on getting to the core of your money story through meditation and visualization..and what is blocking you from success. It was about abundance, not just “money” abundance, but finding whatever it is that abundance means to you, whether it be success, love, money or all of them and more. We each see it differently.( the workshop was about much much more, but for the point of this post, I will keep it short) Well..this workshop helped me to see what my “money/success story is. I am awesome at manifesting..I can bring really great things to me, I have always been able to do it if I am clear, and my intent is pure ( and if the timing is right) but I’m so NOT good at the follow ups! I get to a place of feeling like I am on the verge of something big, and then, it just falls away. Well, I figured out a secret about myself a few weeks ago, and I wasn’t really ready to share with too many people, because it makes me feel very vulnerable , but, here it goes…I found out that I am afraid of success!! SO CRAzY right?? I mean, ANYONE who knows me, can attest to the fact that I am a Super confident, dont take Sh*t from anyone type of girl, I know what I want, and I usually get it ( in a non spolied brat, not “entitled” way, of course 🙂 so when I found out “my truth”, it absolutly floored me..here is my story…
“I have a fear of Success because of a deeper fear of being judged. If Money = Success which=visbility than I fear I will be judged. Being small is safe” AHHHHHH!!!! Can you believe that…it makes no sense, but SO much sense. You would imagine that someone who is blocking herself from success, would not want to start a blog about design/mommyhood/my life since people will be reading the words that..GASP..I write!! Anyway…I am so happy to have learned this, along with the tools that are helping me work through it, and thank you to Marin
, who led the circle!! I am telling you, because I feel like it is part of MY process…sharing something like this isnt for everyone, but simply by me writing it, is helpful! now onto the (3) projects, which, by the way, I truly have no idea when I will finish, but I am feeling less stressed about it 🙂 these are suppose to be FUN, remember 🙂
A crazy mirror that has been painted in pieces in my basement for 5 weeks,
just needing to be glued together! here is a pic of it JUST after the pieces were cut from paint sticks
( its a Pinterest idea)
The “I’m A giant ” Challenge
As you can see, I have stained the floor… I also have trim drying as I write, and navy blue walls ready for artwork..along with a super cool sofa from Ebay!
Picture to follow once everyhting dries!
And finally, I was contacted by a top stencil company to try their stencils (yay!)
I have all of the things I need from them, and have decided I will be stenciling our dining room
I am just trying to decide between colors! ( for 2 weeks)
Traditional Grey with white accent, or, Blue Grey with a light grey accent
Optiona A. Option B.
SO there you have it, a little bit about whats been going on with the real me 🙂 You know, nothin big, just trying to live my truth 🙂